Friday, August 22, 2014

If I Fall Down..

I haven't been on for a couple days, sorry about that.  Life kinda got in the way.  So let's start where we left off:

DAY 16: SOMETHING YOU ALWAYS THINK "WHAT IF..." ABOUT


I think "What if" a lot.  It really does haunt me.

What if I would have just put my foot down and stayed firm with what I wanted?

What if I would have fought harder to be the person I wanted to be and live the life I wanted to live?

What if everything that worried me so much and held me back hadn't?

What if I had chosen one person over the people I chose instead?

Would everything had gone to shit like I was so afraid it would?  Or would it have been as great as I barely dare to wish.

There's a lot I would have done differently, if only "what if" didn't hold me back all the god damned time.  

But it's fine.

It's over.

xx

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Can't Touch This

DAY 15: YOUR ZODIAC/HOROSCOPE 
AND IF YOU THINK IT FITS YOUR PERSONALITY



I, my friends, am a Sagittarius.  Barely.  It's bee a few years since I have looked into zodiac stuff, so it was interesting to read some of the things I did.
Honestly, from the things I've read, I could agree that most of the traits kind of match mine.  Even more matched mine before I had children, but alas.  Part of my is gone I guess.

I used to be a lot more adventurous and less emotional before I had kids.  Now my adventures consist of taking both of the kids somewhere by myself and anything that has to do with kids being hurt or sick makes me bawl.  Like a little bitch. 

The one trait mentioned on several websites that really didn't fit me off is that Sagittarius people are supposed to be positive.  That I am not, nor have I ever been.  I always over analyze EVERYTHING and think of the worst possible thing that could happen.

Some that were dead on were Sagittarius people tend to be irresponsible (I'll give them that, come on I am not married and have to kids), restless (I always have a project or two going on), straightforward, honest, and blunt (all three of which have gotten me in RIDICULOUS amount of trouble).

So, yeah, I guess for the most part my zodiac sign describes me.  DUN DUN DUN.

xx

Monday, August 18, 2014

NANANANANANANANANANANA

I totally forgot about blogging yesterday.  BOO.  Instead I had a date with myself and watched Netflix and ate ice cream.  I was so disappointed when I saw Doctor Horrible's Sing Along Blog and Repo! The Genetic Opera were no longer on instant. DOUBLE BOO.  But I friend of mine recommended The Birdcage, and I was not disappointed!  That's how I roll.  Well anyway, HERE WE GO!

DAY 14: WHAT YOU WORE TODAY

I changed my clothes a couple of times today.

First I started of in a t-shirt and pajama pants, because that's what I fell asleep in.

Then, I changed into shorts and a different t-shirt.  I played with the boys and then worked out a bit, so I needed a shower.

Then I changed into jeans and a nicer shirt, because we got a babysitter and went to the casino to watch a couple of comedians.

Finally, I ended up in shorts and a tank top, and that's what I'm planning to go to bed in.

Yep yep.

xx

Saturday, August 16, 2014

In My Head, I See You All Over Me

DAY 12: FIVE GUYS WHOM YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE


So, I'm not really going to do this one, and here is why:

A-  I have been thinking about it all damn day, and I feel like it would be weird to talk about people I don't know and sound like a creeper, and there is no way I am doing it on people I know/knew in person.

B-  Even without counting people I know, I could only think of two that I actually know the names of.  I grew out of that "Ermergerd they're hot, so I'm going to google stalk and find out who they are" stage a LONG time ago.

C-  I can't offhand even think of anyone who I could search for the name of today.  I am drawing complete blanks.

So, I will list five things that I usually find attractive in a guy.

  • I really like when a guy is taller than me.  The taller the better.
  • I love dark hair, I'm not sure why, I just do.
  • I am a COMPLETE sucker for tattoos and piercings.
  • Since I had braces for so long, it gave me a complex about teeth.  So nice teeth is a definite bonus.
  • Bright eyes.  Some eyes look like black holes, and they creep me out a bit.
Well, that's it for tonight, my friends.  Sleep well.

xx


Friday, August 15, 2014

We Can Always Party On Our Own

DAY 11:  YOUR FAMILY



This should be interesting.  

I'm not really sure how you would describe our family.  But here we go, in order from oldest to youngest.

My dad has always been very hard working.  I mostly remember him being at work during our childhood.  He retired a couple of years ago after having many surgeries do to a degenerative joint disorder he has.  He absolutely adores his grandsons, and for the most part is a good male role model for them.  He has a very strange sense of humor, and some of the things he says completely baffle me.  I also love to give him shit about being a craddle robber, because my mom was in high school when they dated and got married and he is eleven years older than she is.

My mom and I are so similar that sometimes it's quite comical, because we will either think the exact same thing or get the same song stuck in our heads at the same time.  But since we are so similar, when we butt heads it might as well be World War III and it lasts FOREVER because we are both stubborn asses who hold grudges.  Where I am awkward and quiet, my mom is reserved but not awkward in the least and can hold a conversation with anyone.  We make a good team for the most part, and she's always been there when I needed her.

I have an older half-sister, who I don't mention a whole lot.  This reason being that I don't know her very well.  I remember her coming to our house a lot when we were all very young, but since then I have seen her once or twice every few years.  I don't know all why this is, because I have only heard our dad's side of the story.  It's kind of a shame, and I wish I knew her better.  Even more so now that she is expecting her first baby, my first nephew.  It makes me sad that I'm not really going to be able to spoil and see him as much as I would like.
I come next in this order, but I have introduced myself before so HA.

My younger brother is only a year and a half apart, so he was my best friend when we were little, even though sometimes he would annoy the living shit out of me.  He has grown to be a fine young man.  A couple months out of high school he went to trade school, and completed the 18 month welding program in three months.  After that, he started working for a company, but soon headed to North Dakota to work on the pipeline, where he still is (only in Wyoming).  I'm very proud of him.  He is a hard worker, and though he can be an ass, he is overall a very genuine and smart guy.  Ladies hit him up, he's single.

My martian is next.   He's always been very smart for his age, and he pick up on things very fast.  He is so silly and very dramatic.  I say dramatic because if he wants out of his high chair, and you're not unbuckling him fast enough he'll start saying, "I'm stuck!" and if he still thinks you're going too slow it ends up, "I'm dying!"  He is very helpful, and LOVES to play outside and be near the animals.  He also loves his baby brother!  He loves giving him loves and sharing toys he thinks he will like.  He has also recently become very helpful.  He likes to help me put laundry into the washer and dryer, and just today he wanted to help wipe up the floor and hold the dust pan when sweeping.  I'm not ready for him to be so big. :[

Last, but most definitely, not least, is my baby bug.  He is an absolute sweetheart.  He is very calm and happy baby, he only gets crabby when he is really hungry or really tired.  He loves snuggling and being held, he's a cuddle bug.  He absolutely adores his big brother!  He will sit and watch the martian play and absolutely giggles his head off when big brother talk to him.  He like going on walks and playing in his bouncers.  He is in that not quite crawling stage and I am just like "BOTH my babies are growing up too fast!"

Well that's it!  Until next time.

xx

Thursday, August 14, 2014

You Had My Heart

DAY 10: PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON 
SHUFFLE AND WRITE THE FIRST TEN SONGS THAT PLAY


1.  Porn Star Dancing  -  My Darkest Days



2.  Heaven Help Us  -  My Chemical Romance




3.  There Might Be Coffee  -  Deadmau5




4.  Sexting  -  Blood On The Dance Floor Ft. Jeffree Star




5.  We Found Love  -  Forever The Sickest Kids



6.  Same Love  -  Macklemore



7.  Weighted  -  FrnkIero And The Cellabration



8.  Counting Stars  -  OneRepublic



9.  Professional Griefers  -  Deadmau5 Ft. Gerard Way



10.  Umbrella  -  All Time Low






xx


Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Harder. Better. Faster. Stronger.

DAY 9: HOW IMPORTANT YOU THINK EDUCATION IS



Education is important to me.  I believe that everyone should have the basic understanding of things. To me graduating high school is a must, not an option.

This is going to probably sound bad, but I really don't care.  I have known a lot of people who have dropped out of high school, and though I do not judge them because of what they decided to do with their life, I always ask why.  I always get ridiculous crap answers back.  "I just wanted to start working."  "I wasn't really learning anything." Etc.   

I'm sorry, but GED's and diplomas are NOT the same.  A diploma shows you put in the time to graduate high school, GED's show that you didn't.  

But, maybe my negative opinion is based on the fact that my siblings and I were expected to graduate.  Dropping out was not an option.

Now, if someone chooses not to further their education after high school, that's fine.  I myself, went to a semester of college, screwed off a little too much, and ended up pregnant.  So, I have been working to provide for my children, and have taken a couple of years off.  I am planning on going back and furthering my education in the next couple of years.

I'm not in the mood to continue ranting, so goodnight.

xx

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

I Am Not Drunk....Enough

DAY 8: WHAT YOU ATE TODAY




BREAKFAST:

     Strawberry greek yogurt.

LUNCH:

    Salad with pieces of enchilada and tortilla strips in it, with ranch dressing.

DINNER:

    T-bone steak, corn on the cob, grilled shrimp, and Anaheim pepper poppers.

DESERT:

    Sugar cookie with pink frosting. 


NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM.

Easy post is easy.

xx 

Monday, August 11, 2014

JK JK JK LOLOLOL

DAY 7: FIVE PET PEEVES


As mentioned many times in the past, I am a bit odd.  That being said I have a l lot of pet peeves.  Problem is, when I try to think about what they all are, I can't think of any.  So here it goes.  Five of my pet peeves in no particular order.

  1. For the most part, I cannot stand text speak.  I am okay with emoticons, but the only thing I don't get completely irritated with is "lol" and the occasional "jk" IF they are not the only freaking thing in the damn text.  Sure, when text speak first came around, I thought is was funny, but now I find it to be extremely impersonal and annoying as hell.  Who wants to hear "ily" over "I love you"?  Not this bitch.
  2. I absolutely hate being ignored.  Especially if it's in person.  I am one of those people who will annoyingly repeat what I said progressively louder until you acknowledge that I said something.  I also hate being ignored over messages when I can see that you've read what I wrote.  I want to reach through the phone and be like, "ANSWER ME DAMN IT!"
  3. I do not know how some people can stand having their CD's,DVD's, books, etc. in no particular order.  How do they find anything??  Hell guys, organize your books by height or color if you must, just do something!  Most of the times I put things in alphabetical order.  And if I am somewhere where the person I am hanging out with is one of those unorganized individuals, I will ask and then put everything in alphabetical order.
  4. I very much dislike when skinny bitches say they're fat.  Really?  Come on.  Stop searching for compliments and eat a cupcake.  Bitch.
  5. I hate hate hate when people who are very much capable of doing things on their own or with limited assistance will not do anything for themselves.  Stop acting like you own the world and that other people are dirt and get off your lazy ass.  

I could probably list another ten things guys, I am just that kind of crazy.

Thanks for letting me rant on about stupid stuff. :]  Have a nice night!

xx

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Keep It Simple

DAY 6: YOUR VIEWS ON MAINSTREAM MUSIC


Once upon a time, when I was a good ol' teenager, I'm pretty sure I had more of an opinion about this.  Honestly, now days I don't get a chance to listen to the radio.  There was only a country station in the town in Delta I lived in that you could actually hear, and country has never been my favorite genre, so I would just listen to old CD's.

I have no idea what is popular or considered mainstream anymore.  I don't particularly care either.  I have other shit to worry about.  I listen to what I like, even if it makes me seem like I am stuck in the 2000's.  

My only real thought is shame on those who are famous and lip sync and don't even sing or write your songs.  There are really talented people who don't. and probably never will, get anywhere because of their incredible talents, because someone decided that they can just tweak a few things in a recording studio to sound decent.  It's not fair to those who work their asses off.  End rant.



It was nice to have a short mindless post after the some of the latest ginormous posts.

Sleep well everyone.

xx