Now You're Just Somebody That I Used To Know

DAY 5:  THINGS YOU WANT TO SAY TO AN EX

Well now.  This is a bit personal, but maybe it will give me a little bit of closure.  This is going to make me look really bad to a lot of people, but it was all based my personal decisions and choosing.  If you don't like it, you don't have to read what I write on MY blog.  

Here's to my most recent ex:

I'm not sorry.

I'm not sorry that I didn't tell you when I found out I was pregnant.  You honestly were not on my short list of people to tell immediately.  Hell, It wasn't until someone asked if I had told you that I thought, oh shit, maybe I should tell him.

I'm not sorry that our baby is six months old and you still don't know that he exists.  I'm not sorry that you don't know his name, or that he has your eyes and hair.  I'm not sorry that you don't know how amazingly perfect and smart he is.

Why should I be sorry?  The way things ended is your doing, and yes, maybe that is the typical "ex thing" to say, but this time I believe it to be true.

You knew how much it ate at me that my older son's father knew about him and didn't care.  Why would I subject myself to that kind of pain again?  Because honestly, I figured you wouldn't care, or better yet, you'd think I was lying.  But you're not stupid, you would have done the math and deep down you would have known I wasn't lying.

It was much easier to keep your number out of my phone and call it a day.

I'm not sorry that if you ever see this that it might hurt your feelings.  You probably could figure out a way to reach me, and I wouldn't lie to you if you asked, but I am not going to go out of my way to find and tell you something that probably wouldn't matter to you in the first place.

I'm not sorry.  Not even a little bit.

xx