If I Fall Down..

I haven't been on for a couple days, sorry about that.  Life kinda got in the way.  So let's start where we left off:

DAY 16: SOMETHING YOU ALWAYS THINK "WHAT IF..." ABOUT

I think "What if" a lot.  It really does haunt me.

What if I would have just put my foot down and stayed firm with what I wanted?

What if I would have fought harder to be the person I wanted to be and live the life I wanted to live?

What if everything that worried me so much and held me back hadn't?

What if I had chosen one person over the people I chose instead?

Would everything had gone to shit like I was so afraid it would?  Or would it have been as great as I barely dare to wish.

There's a lot I would have done differently, if only "what if" didn't hold me back all the god damned time.  

But it's fine.

It's over.

xx

Can't Touch This

DAY 15: YOUR ZODIAC/HOROSCOPE 

AND IF YOU THINK IT FITS YOUR PERSONALITY

I, my friends, am a Sagittarius.  Barely.  It's bee a few years since I have looked into zodiac stuff, so it was interesting to read some of the things I did.

Honestly, from the things I've read, I could agree that most of the traits kind of match mine.  Even more matched mine before I had children, but alas.  Part of my is gone I guess.

I used to be a lot more adventurous and less emotional before I had kids.  Now my adventures consist of taking both of the kids somewhere by myself and anything that has to do with kids being hurt or sick makes me bawl.  Like a little bitch. 

The one trait mentioned on several websites that really didn't fit me off is that Sagittarius people are supposed to be positive.  That I am not, nor have I ever been.  I always over analyze EVERYTHING and think of the worst possible thing that could happen.

Some that were dead on were Sagittarius people tend to be irresponsible (I'll give them that, come on I am not married and have to kids), restless (I always have a project or two going on), straightforward, honest, and blunt (all three of which have gotten me in RIDICULOUS amount of trouble).

So, yeah, I guess for the most part my zodiac sign describes me.  DUN DUN DUN.

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NANANANANANANANANANANA

I totally forgot about blogging yesterday.  BOO.  Instead I had a date with myself and watched Netflix and ate ice cream.  I was so disappointed when I saw Doctor Horrible's Sing Along Blog and Repo! The Genetic Opera were no longer on instant. DOUBLE BOO.  But I friend of mine recommended The Birdcage, and I was not disappointed!  That's how I roll.  Well anyway, HERE WE GO!

DAY 14: WHAT YOU WORE TODAY

I changed my clothes a couple of times today.

First I started of in a t-shirt and pajama pants, because that's what I fell asleep in.

Then, I changed into shorts and a different t-shirt.  I played with the boys and then worked out a bit, so I needed a shower.

Then I changed into jeans and a nicer shirt, because we got a babysitter and went to the casino to watch a couple of comedians.

Finally, I ended up in shorts and a tank top, and that's what I'm planning to go to bed in.

Yep yep.

xx

In My Head, I See You All Over Me

DAY 12: FIVE GUYS WHOM YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE

So, I'm not really going to do this one, and here is why:

A-  I have been thinking about it all damn day, and I feel like it would be weird to talk about people I don't know and sound like a creeper, and there is no way I am doing it on people I know/knew in person.

B-  Even without counting people I know, I could only think of two that I actually know the names of.  I grew out of that "Ermergerd they're hot, so I'm going to google stalk and find out who they are" stage a LONG time ago.

C-  I can't offhand even think of anyone who I could search for the name of today.  I am drawing complete blanks.

So, I will list five things that I usually find attractive in a guy.

• I really like when a guy is taller than me.  The taller the better.
• I love dark hair, I'm not sure why, I just do.
• I am a COMPLETE sucker for tattoos and piercings.
• Since I had braces for so long, it gave me a complex about teeth.  So nice teeth is a definite bonus.
• Bright eyes.  Some eyes look like black holes, and they creep me out a bit.

Well, that's it for tonight, my friends.  Sleep well.

xx

We Can Always Party On Our Own

DAY 11:  YOUR FAMILY

This should be interesting.  

I'm not really sure how you would describe our family.  But here we go, in order from oldest to youngest.

My dad has always been very hard working.  I mostly remember him being at work during our childhood.  He retired a couple of years ago after having many surgeries do to a degenerative joint disorder he has.  He absolutely adores his grandsons, and for the most part is a good male role model for them.  He has a very strange sense of humor, and some of the things he says completely baffle me.  I also love to give him shit about being a craddle robber, because my mom was in high school when they dated and got married and he is eleven years older than she is.

My mom and I are so similar that sometimes it's quite comical, because we will either think the exact same thing or get the same song stuck in our heads at the same time.  But since we are so similar, when we butt heads it might as well be World War III and it lasts FOREVER because we are both stubborn asses who hold grudges.  Where I am awkward and quiet, my mom is reserved but not awkward in the least and can hold a conversation with anyone.  We make a good team for the most part, and she's always been there when I needed her.

I have an older half-sister, who I don't mention a whole lot.  This reason being that I don't know her very well.  I remember her coming to our house a lot when we were all very young, but since then I have seen her once or twice every few years.  I don't know all why this is, because I have only heard our dad's side of the story.  It's kind of a shame, and I wish I knew her better.  Even more so now that she is expecting her first baby, my first nephew.  It makes me sad that I'm not really going to be able to spoil and see him as much as I would like.

I come next in this order, but I have introduced myself before so HA.

My younger brother is only a year and a half apart, so he was my best friend when we were little, even though sometimes he would annoy the living shit out of me.  He has grown to be a fine young man.  A couple months out of high school he went to trade school, and completed the 18 month welding program in three months.  After that, he started working for a company, but soon headed to North Dakota to work on the pipeline, where he still is (only in Wyoming).  I'm very proud of him.  He is a hard worker, and though he can be an ass, he is overall a very genuine and smart guy.  Ladies hit him up, he's single.

My martian is next.   He's always been very smart for his age, and he pick up on things very fast.  He is so silly and very dramatic.  I say dramatic because if he wants out of his high chair, and you're not unbuckling him fast enough he'll start saying, "I'm stuck!" and if he still thinks you're going too slow it ends up, "I'm dying!"  He is very helpful, and LOVES to play outside and be near the animals.  He also loves his baby brother!  He loves giving him loves and sharing toys he thinks he will like.  He has also recently become very helpful.  He likes to help me put laundry into the washer and dryer, and just today he wanted to help wipe up the floor and hold the dust pan when sweeping.  I'm not ready for him to be so big. :[

Last, but most definitely, not least, is my baby bug.  He is an absolute sweetheart.  He is very calm and happy baby, he only gets crabby when he is really hungry or really tired.  He loves snuggling and being held, he's a cuddle bug.  He absolutely adores his big brother!  He will sit and watch the martian play and absolutely giggles his head off when big brother talk to him.  He like going on walks and playing in his bouncers.  He is in that not quite crawling stage and I am just like "BOTH my babies are growing up too fast!"

Well that's it!  Until next time.

xx

You Had My Heart

DAY 10: PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON 

SHUFFLE AND WRITE THE FIRST TEN SONGS THAT PLAY

1.  Porn Star Dancing  -  My Darkest Days

2.  Heaven Help Us  -  My Chemical Romance

3.  There Might Be Coffee  -  Deadmau5

4.  Sexting  -  Blood On The Dance Floor Ft. Jeffree Star

5.  We Found Love  -  Forever The Sickest Kids

6.  Same Love  -  Macklemore

7.  Weighted  -  FrnkIero And The Cellabration

8.  Counting Stars  -  OneRepublic

9.  Professional Griefers  -  Deadmau5 Ft. Gerard Way

10.  Umbrella  -  All Time Low

xx

Harder. Better. Faster. Stronger.

DAY 9: HOW IMPORTANT YOU THINK EDUCATION IS

Education is important to me.  I believe that everyone should have the basic understanding of things. To me graduating high school is a must, not an option.

This is going to probably sound bad, but I really don't care.  I have known a lot of people who have dropped out of high school, and though I do not judge them because of what they decided to do with their life, I always ask why.  I always get ridiculous crap answers back.  "I just wanted to start working."  "I wasn't really learning anything." Etc.   

I'm sorry, but GED's and diplomas are NOT the same.  A diploma shows you put in the time to graduate high school, GED's show that you didn't.  

But, maybe my negative opinion is based on the fact that my siblings and I were expected to graduate.  Dropping out was not an option.

Now, if someone chooses not to further their education after high school, that's fine.  I myself, went to a semester of college, screwed off a little too much, and ended up pregnant.  So, I have been working to provide for my children, and have taken a couple of years off.  I am planning on going back and furthering my education in the next couple of years.

I'm not in the mood to continue ranting, so goodnight.

xx

I Am Not Drunk....Enough

DAY 8: WHAT YOU ATE TODAY

BREAKFAST:

     Strawberry greek yogurt.

LUNCH:

    Salad with pieces of enchilada and tortilla strips in it, with ranch dressing.

DINNER:

    T-bone steak, corn on the cob, grilled shrimp, and Anaheim pepper poppers.

DESERT:

    Sugar cookie with pink frosting. 

NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM.

Easy post is easy.

xx 

JK JK JK LOLOLOL

DAY 7: FIVE PET PEEVES

As mentioned many times in the past, I am a bit odd.  That being said I have a l lot of pet peeves.  Problem is, when I try to think about what they all are, I can't think of any.  So here it goes.  Five of my pet peeves in no particular order.

1. For the most part, I cannot stand text speak.  I am okay with emoticons, but the only thing I don't get completely irritated with is "lol" and the occasional "jk" IF they are not the only freaking thing in the damn text.  Sure, when text speak first came around, I thought is was funny, but now I find it to be extremely impersonal and annoying as hell.  Who wants to hear "ily" over "I love you"?  Not this bitch.
   
2. I absolutely hate being ignored.  Especially if it's in person.  I am one of those people who will annoyingly repeat what I said progressively louder until you acknowledge that I said something.  I also hate being ignored over messages when I can see that you've read what I wrote.  I want to reach through the phone and be like, "ANSWER ME DAMN IT!"
   
3. I do not know how some people can stand having their CD's,DVD's, books, etc. in no particular order.  How do they find anything??  Hell guys, organize your books by height or color if you must, just do something!  Most of the times I put things in alphabetical order.  And if I am somewhere where the person I am hanging out with is one of those unorganized individuals, I will ask and then put everything in alphabetical order.
   
4. I very much dislike when skinny bitches say they're fat.  Really?  Come on.  Stop searching for compliments and eat a cupcake.  Bitch.
   
5. I hate hate hate when people who are very much capable of doing things on their own or with limited assistance will not do anything for themselves.  Stop acting like you own the world and that other people are dirt and get off your lazy ass.  

I could probably list another ten things guys, I am just that kind of crazy.

Thanks for letting me rant on about stupid stuff. :]  Have a nice night!

xx

Keep It Simple

DAY 6: YOUR VIEWS ON MAINSTREAM MUSIC

Once upon a time, when I was a good ol' teenager, I'm pretty sure I had more of an opinion about this.  Honestly, now days I don't get a chance to listen to the radio.  There was only a country station in the town in Delta I lived in that you could actually hear, and country has never been my favorite genre, so I would just listen to old CD's.

I have no idea what is popular or considered mainstream anymore.  I don't particularly care either.  I have other shit to worry about.  I listen to what I like, even if it makes me seem like I am stuck in the 2000's.  

My only real thought is shame on those who are famous and lip sync and don't even sing or write your songs.  There are really talented people who don't. and probably never will, get anywhere because of their incredible talents, because someone decided that they can just tweak a few things in a recording studio to sound decent.  It's not fair to those who work their asses off.  End rant.

It was nice to have a short mindless post after the some of the latest ginormous posts.

Sleep well everyone.

xx

Now You're Just Somebody That I Used To Know

DAY 5:  THINGS YOU WANT TO SAY TO AN EX

Well now.  This is a bit personal, but maybe it will give me a little bit of closure.  This is going to make me look really bad to a lot of people, but it was all based my personal decisions and choosing.  If you don't like it, you don't have to read what I write on MY blog.  

Here's to my most recent ex:

I'm not sorry.

I'm not sorry that I didn't tell you when I found out I was pregnant.  You honestly were not on my short list of people to tell immediately.  Hell, It wasn't until someone asked if I had told you that I thought, oh shit, maybe I should tell him.

I'm not sorry that our baby is six months old and you still don't know that he exists.  I'm not sorry that you don't know his name, or that he has your eyes and hair.  I'm not sorry that you don't know how amazingly perfect and smart he is.

Why should I be sorry?  The way things ended is your doing, and yes, maybe that is the typical "ex thing" to say, but this time I believe it to be true.

You knew how much it ate at me that my older son's father knew about him and didn't care.  Why would I subject myself to that kind of pain again?  Because honestly, I figured you wouldn't care, or better yet, you'd think I was lying.  But you're not stupid, you would have done the math and deep down you would have known I wasn't lying.

It was much easier to keep your number out of my phone and call it a day.

I'm not sorry that if you ever see this that it might hurt your feelings.  You probably could figure out a way to reach me, and I wouldn't lie to you if you asked, but I am not going to go out of my way to find and tell you something that probably wouldn't matter to you in the first place.

I'm not sorry.  Not even a little bit.

xx

One Two Buckle My Shoe...

DAY 4: BULLET YOUR WHOLE DAY

Alright guys, this is probably going to be SUPER boring.  The kiddlettes and I didn't do anything fun or exciting really today, and my cleaning day is tomorrow, so this is basically what we do on a lazy day around here.

• Baby bug woke up, so I got him a bottle, changed him, and went back to sleep.  Four A.M. was too early for this non-morning person.  NOPE.
• Martian woke up because he couldn't find his binkie.  So I retrieved the pacifier that had fallen out of his bed, changed him, and was glad that he wanted to go back to sleep.  Six o'clock is still too early for me.  Haha.
• Finally got out of bed and got both the boys ready for the day.
• Playtime for an hour before breakfast.
• Breakfast time!
• After changing the boys again, the martian and I brushed our teeth and combed our hair while bug practiced crawling.
• More playtime!  Hooray!
• Noon is nap time around this household, so I once again changed the kiddos and then laid both them both down and started folding the laundry I've been neglecting for the past day.
• Halfway through nap time, I could here that the martian hadn't gone to sleep, so I got him up and had some alone time with him, which doesn't happen as much as I would like. :[
• The martian and I had lunch while the baby was still napping.
• The baby finally woke up, so I changed the boys, and while the martian played, I fed the baby his lunch.  He loves him some baby food. NOM NOM NOM.
• I put some clothes in the washer and started them.  Laundry and diapers guys, it's a never ending cycle.
• Then I put all the clean dishes away, and put all of the dirty ones in the dishwasher.  I also washed the pizza pan that we had used the night before.
• More playing with the boys.  Hooray!
• Changed the boys.  AGAIN.  Then it was late afternoon nap time for them.
• Started another load of laundry, put the clothes I had folded earlier away, and watched the ID channel while knitting.  That's what I do during my "me" time.  I live a boring life guys.
• I then started dinner, and then watched more ID.
• The man child woke up, so I changed him, and then he helped me put clothes from the washer to the dryer!  IT WAS ADORABLE!  He is such a good helper sometimes!
• The baby boy woke up, so I changed him.  And more playtime!
• I finished up dinner and then set it out to cool a little bit.
• Dinner time!  Hooray!
• Cleaned the messy boys up, and then played for another hour before it was time to get them ready for bed.
• Got the boys in their jammies, and snuggled up with them watching Disney Junior, 'cause that's how we roll.
• Changed them both one last time before bed.  Had the martian give the Grrpa a night night love before I gave him loves and put him in bed.
• Gave the baby loves and one last bottle before bed before waiting for him to fall asleep.
• Took a nice hot shower and got into my own pajama's, and now here I am!  Writing about my day, in all of it's glory. 

That ended up being longer than I thought it would be in my brain, seeing as that was our lazy day.  Tomorrow would have been a little more interesting (NOT) because once a week I scrub all the floors, and pretty much deep clean the whole house.

Goodnight.

xx

It's Going To Be Totally AWESOME!

DAY 3 : A BOOK YOU LOVE

Okay guys, this was REALLY REALLY hard!  I have literally spent all day trying to pick one book that I love, and as the avid reader I am, I couldn't do it.  So I started thinking of series.  Still, I was struggling to make a choice.  So in the end I decided to let my nerd flag fly and chose Harry Potter.  So be prepared for this super long blog post.

I literally grew up with this series.  I started reading this series right after the third book came out, at the insistence of my best friend.  I WAS HOOKED.  At the time, Harry Potter was not as wildly popular as it is today, at least in my home town.  And at the time I was too young to venture out very far or via the internet.  

I remember being so excited that they made it into a movie, and I begged my parents to take me.  My mom had thought there was no way that I had actually read and understood the books seeing as I was only eight when the first movie went to theaters.  She was surprised when afterwards I started explaining everything that had been left out.  I have always read a lot higher than my grade level, so it was no surprise really.

After we saw the movie I got my younger brother into the books and my mom, at the time, was not going to read them until the series was complete so she wouldn't have to wait on the next books.  That didn't last very long, because my brother and I insisted on borrowing the book-on-tape from the library and listening to them on road trips.

Does anyone else remember the struggle of waiting for the next book to come out?!  I would beg my mom to pre-order the book. and I would be incredibly impatient waiting for it to be delivered to my post office.  I know there were more than a few times when I suggested that we should just break into the post office.  Thanks for not listening to me, and keeping us out of jail.  I owe you one.  Do you know what I would get grounded from, after the books would come out?  Reading.  I got grounded from reading.  A LOT.  Who has time to do chores when there is a brand new copy of Harry freaking Potter just waiting to be read?!

I love Harry Potter guys.  I love (most) of the movies.  I love Pottermore.  I love the A Very Potter Musical series.  I love the GIFs.  I love the reddit and tumblr screenshots.  I love that Harry Potter is one of the most popular fandoms, and that it is literally EVERYWHERE.  It makes me happy. :]

Anyway, I'm tired and done rambling!  

Goodnight!

xx

No Freedom 'Til We're Equal. Damn Right I Support It.

DAY 2: SOMETHING YOU FEEL STRONGLY ABOUT

It is 2014, why is gay rights and gay marriage still an issue?  Honestly people.  It's getting ridiculous.   

Utah, I don't even live in you anymore, and I still have to see on the news what an asshole you're being and how STUPID you look.  It reminds me of drunken parties.  After a few drinks, you're like "Oh yeah!  I am in control and I know EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING."  Well, guess what, after a bit you're going to look back and be like, "Oh shit, I made a complete ass out of myself and EVERYONE saw it!"  Stop drinking so much, Utah, and go home.

I don't know guys, I have just never cared whether people were gay or straight.  They are just people.  Even being explained as a child what it meant the only thing that concerned me about so-and-so liking boys was that I'm a girl, and did that mean they didn't want to be my friend anymore?!  But then you get older and realize what "liking" people means.  No worries after that!

Besides people being too stupid to realize people are just people, I don't understand half of the arguments against gay marriage.  Please don't give me any of that "God hates gays" bullshit, because NOWHERE in the bible does it say that.  "Oh.  Well, it says two men cannot lay together." (Or however that goes)  Well, EXCUSE ME sir, but that is mixed fiber clothing you are wearing, guess you didn't finish reading that SAME book in the bible.  Oh, and we're not stoning you for cheating on your wife?!  Well, let's remedy that shall we.  

There is one of excuse people use that REALLY pisses me off and definitely strikes a nerve.  "Children need both a mom and a dad otherwise they are doomed to fail."  Are you serious guys?  How is working my ass off to pay for not only everything my children need, but everything they want leading them to failure?  Because what you are saying is that children of single parents are doomed to the same thing, because they either don't have a mom or a dad.  Would it have been better for me to have stayed with the martian's sperm donor and continued on the downhill spiral of abuse, that one day, despite all my efforts, would have gone from just being me being harmed to my poor little baby?  How would that have given him ANY advantage to what he has now.  He is in a SAFE home, surrounded by people who love not only him but his little brother (who, as we all know, came after the fact and that relationship).  Even at NINETEEN I knew that my baby would be happier without having to live around what was happening at the time.  You cannot tell me that would have been better for him.

Also, "Gays can't have children themselves, so they shouldn't be able to be married."  By saying that, you are basically saying that marriage is just to have children, and that those who suffer with fertility problems should not be allowed to have children.  Do you guys read this shit before you start spouting it, or do you just not care?

I saw something a few weeks ago on Facebook that absolutely hurt my heart.  There was a video of a drag queen in California who stood up to anti-gay supporters at a pride parade, and in the comments a member of the LGBTQ community commented how they should have just shot any straight people who had shown up at the parade because no straight person is really a gay ally and they will stab you in the back faster than you can turn.  Woah there.  It was crazy to see something like that to me.  I guess I am just not used to those kind of comments, but I am sure that individual has heard and seen much harsher things in their lifetime, and that is sad.  

So, I could go on and on about this subject, but I really should start getting dinner ready while the babes are napping, and this is getting rather lengthy.

Love is love.  One day their won't be marriage and gay marriage, it will just be marriage.

xx

Less Than Three Is Just A Tease

Okay, I explained just a little bit ago what is going on with this post, so let's just hop to it.

DAY 1: FIVE WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART

This may be tricky.  Anymore, I like to pretend there is a gaping hole in my chest and that I have no heart.  So you can't exactly win something that's not there right?  Anyway, we're getting off topic.

1.  Must be good with kids.  Having kids of my own, I know how hard they can be.  But they can be the cutest, sweetest, little humans you ever meet.  To win my heart someone has to be able to not only put up with tantrums and fit throwing, but also not get immediately annoyed by it.  Kids throw fits.  Especially toddlers.  You know it, I know it, hell other children know it.  Bonus points in this category go to single parents, because they have already seen and heard it all, so their is that support when you're feeling overwhelmed.

2.  Patience is ALWAYS a good thing.  I have mentioned before that I am riddled with anxieties and oddities related to them.  I know that it causes other people, along with myself, unneeded and unnecessary stress.  Believe me when I say that I know that my awkwardness around new people is embarrassing and that driving in new towns should be an adventure instead of a nightmare.  Trust me, I know all this, I am the one who has to deal with it.  Every.  Single.  Day.  Just hold my hand, tell me it's okay, and let me know you're by my side.

3.  Don't pressure me to tell you about things I might not be comfortable talking to you about yet.  Once you earn that trust, it all comes up like word vomit, and you'll hear way more than you probably want to hear about how I turned from fun and spontaneous to an untrusting shut-in.  It might take a long time for me to be open.  But if you really want my heart, that will be no issue.

4.  Don't flirt with other people.  I have been cheated on one too many times, so now I can get a bit jealous.  I don't care how many people hit on you, but I do care what your actions and answers about it are.

5.  This one may seem clingy, but remember, I have been in some really awful relationships so it's kind of a given.  Remind me that you care about me often.  It can be something as simple as a text or you personally saying it to me.

Well, there we go!  Day one is done!  Have a fantastic evening!

xx

I'm Down If You Don't Expect Any More From Me

Hello again.

I lied earlier, though trust me it wasn't intentional.  I said you would see me possibly later this week, but it's only been a few hours.  Yay for me changing my mind all the time.  

Well anyway, earlier I said that I had a few ideas for this blog, but wasn't quite sure about whether or not I was going through with it.  Well I am.  A few weeks ago, I was browsing through Pinterest (you didn't expect that one did you?  Haha.) and I stumbled upon journal prompts.  I thought to myself, "Hey, self, journals are kind of like blogs, you could use some of these prompts as things to write about on the blog you said you weren't going to abandon, yet you have.  AGAIN."  My mind is kind of a bitch like that.  Anyway, we're going to give it a try.  The first thing is going to be a 30 Day challenge thing, since I'm feeling ballsy, and then I may either do another challenge, or do some random prompts.  If that didn't make sense just go with it.  We'll figure this out together.

Alright, here is the list of prompts:

I would have just chosen a random "August challenge" list, but we're already on the fifth day, and I don't want to have to play catch up.  Eh hem.

I plan on starting this today, so you'll have THREE updates in one day.  Boo for all of us. :\

See you soon (depending on whether the boys will actually cooperate or not.)

xx

You Don't Really Wanna Mess With Me Tonight

Hell-oh ladies and gentleman.

It is I, the terrible at blogging owner of this wasteland.  I was reminded very early this morning that I have a blog, and I was more then stunned to learn that I have two readers.  Hot damn.

Anywhore, what's new with me you ask?  Well I moved about a month ago, and in that month only one of my "friends" has kept texting me.  Thanks bitches.  As you can tell, I am not in the greatest of moods this afternoon.  And to anyone who thinks moving is "awesome" and "fun" go screw yourself, because unpacking all this shit has been terrible.  There are still a few boxes and bags in my closet that I just have no will to want to find a place for any of it.  Same with the boy's closet.  Meh.

The boys are doing great, though the martian is overly crabby this past week, and I can't decide whether he's getting more teeth and I just can't see/feel them or if the terrible two's are going to kick in four months early.  The bug is now six months old and rolls all over the place, and is starting some forward movement that looks like the beginning stages of crawling.  I can't believe they are getting so big so fast. :[

I have a few plans for this blog, but I am on the fence on whether or not I'm really going to do it or not.  So, we'll see how that goes.  I'm considering deleting all my posts and "starting over" again, but honestly, with only two readers it really wouldn't matter.  Here I go rambling again.

Well then, I plan on writing again soon.  I'm thinking later this week or early next week.  But, we know how good I am about writing on here.  HA.

Have a great week.

xx

Uuuuuhhhhhhhhh....The Fu--??

Why hello there.  I unintentionally abandoned my blog.  Again.  What can I say, either I've been at work and am exhausted, or I've been chacing the kiddos all day and am exhausted. Goodness gracious.  They weren't kidding when they said kids means no "me time".

Well, I don't remember if I said this before, but moving day is drawing nearer.  My family is moving about 500 miles south of here and into Arizona.  Very soon.  Everyone keeps asking me what the kids and I are going to do with no family here, but we are going too.  There is no reason for us to stay here if my family is going to be so far away.

The new house just got placed on the property a little less than 24 hours ago, and my last day of work is in a little less than three weeks.  It will be quite interesting just picking up and leaving.  But I think that's exactly what I need right now.  A whole new start.  I am excited, yet terrified.  I have no idea what I'm going to do once I get there, but I have enough money saved that I won't have to desperately search for a job right away, and will be able to get everything the boys need without any worry.

We're in for one hell of an adventure.

xx

L Is For The Way You Look At Me...

Long time, no post, but that's okay.  I have been a very busy woman.

So my little bug (baby number two) is finally here!  I actually went into labor on the night of my due date, and I had him early the next morning!  Everything went very well and I have been enjoying being home with both of my babies.  It's been kind of stressful, but things are starting to calm down, so all is well.  The martian is loving his baby brother, and is a little overly helpful in fact, but I would rather that then a jealous rage. :]

I've been trying to find to blog for the past couple of weeks, and I actually have a few ideas for posts, it's just that once both kids are asleep I either just want to get shit done or sleep.  Sleep wins a lot. Haha.

Until next time.

xoxox

We Are Never Ever Ever Getting Back Together

Ahem...

...That is all.  Haha. :p

xx

When I Think About You, I Think About Seventeen

Well, my due date is in two days.  I'm pretty sure that I should be more excited, but seeing as I've been dilated to a three for the past two weeks and was showing no further progress as of four days ago, I'm pretty sure my doctor is right and I am going to go past my due date.  Bleh.  I have another appointment tomorrow, so I am HOPING that maybe he will feel sorry for me and induce me.  Haha.  I can hope right?  It worked with the doctor I had when I was pregnant with the martian.

I'm just kind of tired of my insides feeling like they are getting clawed apart.

This past week the martian was sick.  I'm really not too sure what was up because he just had a fever.  No other real symptoms.  It was kind of strange, but he's been acting a lot better since yesterday, so hooray.  But it was so weird, after being super happy and playful yesterday last night as soon as we had the house to ourselves he bawled and bawled for an hour and a half.  And no matter what I did I could not soothe or make him feel better.  I had woken up at four in the morning and had not had a chance to take a nap all day, and about eight o'clock I was exhausted and hormonal and feeling like a failure mom because I couldn't make one child happy, how the hell was I going to take care of two?!?!  So, I started bawling alongside my toddler, and that little shit, he stopped crying, cuddled up close to me, and handed me his pacifier.  He was perfectly happy the rest of the night.  What.  WHAT.

Sometimes, I my brain just does not comprehend. Haha.

Well, that is all for this quick update.  Have a great day!

xx

Maybe It's Not My Weekend, But It's Going To Be My Year

Happy 2014!

This year my resolution is to continue the 52 money challenge, because I have decided that by the time it is finished, that will be plenty of money saved away for two spoiled little boys Christmas presents!  Yes, I am thinking about Christmas again already.

Let's talk 2013, because I am a lazy ass when it comes to blogging.

I had a fantastic birthday weekend!  I really enjoyed the warmer weather in Las Vegas, and I enjoyed watching, as my dad would phrase it, men dancing around in their panties.  I also discovered that slot machines are kind of really lame, and that I'm pretty good at Black Jack.  We took an awesome tour of the Vegas strip on a double decker bus and visited Freemont Street, which was kind of sketchy.  The only downside to the trip was that by the end of it I really really REALLY missed my kiddo, and I kept seeing cute little kids everywhere.

Christmas was a bit strange this year. It was the first Christmas Eve dinner I have ever missed due to the fact that I was working.  But, as everyone should know, I have an awesome family, and they sent dinner to me via my younger brother.  So though it was a bit weird not eating with my family, I still got over stuffed with delicious food.

New Years Eve was wildly sober as well.  My mom and I watched the ball drop on television, in our pajamas, while eating junk food, and then after it dropped we went to bed. Hahaha.  Some may think that's lame, but you know who cares?  Not me.  That's just how I'd rather spend nights anymore.  At home, with my family, and then going to bed.

So far everything is going good with Festus #2.  I've been going to the doctor every week and as his due date approaches I'm getting more and more excited to meet this little surprise addition to our family.  I recently broke my phone, which is a shame because the Martian has snuggled up to my tummy, and I thought it was ridiculously adorable, but alas no phone means no pictures.

I hope you all had a great holiday season!

xx